Life, Love

Life Goals

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School days – blurred to protect the innocent

I remember in grade school we had an assignment to write down what it is we wanted to do when we grew up.  (Anybody form NHS class of ’99 remember?) Pretty typical assignment. I usually ask my students the same thing every year.  We had a little fun reading our replies at a class reunion a while back.

Anyhow,  I remember that day.  As little me wrote down my life dreams and listened to my classmates hopes and goals I began to worry.  ( I was a worrying child)  I sat and listened as the teacher read each one aloud.  Doctors, sports stars, families, cars, houses, college; all these things worked their way into my classmates’ goals.

I thought about mine: To help people get the things they need and to run an orphanage.  I think this was third grade. I didn’t have a clue how I would actually achieve these goals.  I had never heard of social workers or foster parents.  I began to panic a little and to think that maybe I was a bit “off” and nobody had the heart to tell me yet.

I remember going up to my teacher in quiet anxiety.  I told her my fears.  What if my goals aren’t grand enough?  Did I do something wrong?  Will I fail somehow because I didn’t even consider going to college an important thing for my future? (I told you I was a worrying child)

I can’t remember her exact words but I do remember the effect.  She said so solemnly and clearly that my goals were great indeed.  So, here I am many years later and I can honestly say my goals haven’t changed much.  I still want to save the world.  I want to take all the unwanted babies into my arms.  I want to help and to give and to love.

I know I miss that goal often.  Truthfully, I run out of strength and simply cannot physically do much at the end of my work day. I just wanted to let you know, if you need me I am here.

Family, Farm, Home, Life, Random

My Mommy and Daddy are Coming!

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My parents aren’t they cute? 🙂

My parents are coming over today 🙂 This will be the first time my dad has ever seen the farm.  So far, just my mom has seen it “in real life” *hint, hint family!* It’s a bit like Christmas maybe better because I don’t have “entertainment pressure”.  It’s just our family goofing off and doing dumb stuff together.

Plus, they are bringing me a desk! The final installment to my command center a.k.a. home office crammed in the corner of the dining room. I am a happy girl!

They are also bringing a couch so that our care group can all be seated comfortably when we get together which we do every week. AND they are bringing me leftover paint.  This is pure gold people.  You have no idea how much fun it is to mix up some leftover paint and create a gorgeous color …unless you have already tried it then maybe you do.  So I will be in the color lab soon to see what I can concoct for our recently acquired bedrooms.

We decided that since girl 1 was upstairs girl 2 ought to be as well. Now we have three kids relocated to 3 separate rooms.  Boy (and boy’s dog) have moved downstairs to the big room previously occupied by 2 girls.  Girl 1 gets the “craftroom” read: wonky room that was kinda iffy on the flooring.  Girl 2 gets the tiny room previously occupied by boy.

Everybody relocated well.  Everybody except girl 2 that is.  She is the master of messes. She is often getting distracted by a more interesting task.  Actually, it could be dish washing as long as she can avoid the task at hand a little longer!  To be fair, she is a collector and she has the smallest room so the odds aren’t in her favor.  I purposely gave her this room so she would be forced to deal with her mess on her own on a DAILY basis. No more big sis to clean up for her!

I plan to help her organize it and get it all set up then sit back and see how she does…should be interesting!  If I ever get the video figured out I’ll give you al a virtual tour.  I’m really not that tech saavy though so it may be a while…

Happy Friday 🙂

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Because it’s Thursday… here’s a classic 90’s kid for you!

Well, I missed posting yesterday.  It was a Wednesday and for me that means I was spinning like a top all day until I finally closed my eyes.  If there isn’t something in the crock pot Wednesday morning when I leave the house dinner looks suspiciously like a pb&j…

Today is Thursday and I wanted to share a little challenge that a friend and I are doing.  Twice a week share one scripture that you have been reading with a friend. We just started and its more like a scripture swap as there are only 2 participants at the moment.

I was reading to my little class out of 1 John yesterday and one stuck in my mind.  This is what I have to share today:

1 John 1:9

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

As I explained the forgiving power of God to a group of barely awake 5 year olds I knew this was something that was worth sharing with you all.  No body is perfect but it surely is a comfort to know where you can go to make things right again.

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Learning Moderation

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I wonder sometimes how in the world I keep from spinning off my feet.  It seems that I am always running and always tired. I go and go until I crash to a stand still.  I feel like I have been standing still more than going lately.  I used up all my go it seems.  I suppose moderation is the best thing to practice but my moderator is broken.

My husband is a rare sort of person who actually drives UNDER the speed limit.  Yes, under.  It is so unnerving! I am a petal to the metal type of gal.  If you gotta get somewhere- go quickly! And yet the more I rush the more I feel I am missing.

Sometimes, I want to cancel everything.  I want to go back to watching clouds pass in the sky and listening to the birds chirp.  I want to watch my kids as they grow.  To take them on adventures and take SO MANY PICTURES!  I want to sneak away with my husband and remember the first years we shared.  Before things became complicated and full of tasks to be completed.

Occasionally, I wish we could go back to the quieter times.  When rocking a baby was my afternoon chore.  When we had one rust bucket car that always idled high and had to be started with a screw driver but ran perfectly every time.  When it was enough to just be and not always fly about to “get it all done”.  That’s a laugh, it will never all be done here.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m very thankful for what we have and for all that God has blessed us with.  We really have a dream come true in the flesh.  It’s just that sometimes more is simply more.  What matters is not what we have but who we share it with.  If you see me running around looking like a scare crow – please just push me into a chair and make me have a cup of coffee with you.  I think I need some lessons on moderation.

Family, Home, Life

Thrift Store Finds and Command Center in Progress

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Water color of a farm, artist unknown

I love a good thrift store.  We are fortunate to have a couple of them in our town.  I am in the process of setting up a command center for our home/farm.  I am hoping that our schedules and to-do’s will be a bit less hectic if I can organize a place for all of our paperwork.  We are still very much moving into our new home as we can only do so much at a time.  It seems  every project is preceded by about twenty others!

Anyhow, I have been hunting for office finds and have come across some great items to get things organized.  I will try to post complete before and afters once I get everything together.  My parents are going to bring a desk for me when they come next week to visit.  I will be painting it to match my aqua-gold-neutral color scheme. I can hardly wait to get my “office” up and running

Right now I have a table in the dining room that is my desk and all the various things and papers that are officey are scattered in a variety of storage areas near by.  One of the things my husband requested was a designated place for mail.  I found this:Photo on 2017-10-08 at 16.03

Mission accomplished!  It gets a place of privilege on a small side table that I also bought from the thrift store for a couple bucks and painted a neutral gray/beige color.

I needed task lighting and I found this lamp at the thrift store:Photo on 2017-10-08 at 16.07

It is simple and pretty and most importantly tall enough to  make sure that the light will be where I need it to be.Photo on 2017-10-08 at 16.09

This little key holder was from Home Depot and was just really cute. So I got it. I don’t have plans for it yet but it will match my stuff and I love it.:)Photo on 2017-10-08 at 16.11

This old wire three tired tray was a thrift store find that fit in perfectly with everything and it took no paint at all – yay!

I can’t wait until I get everything painted and in place- more to come!

Life, Random

Into the Blue

 

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The blue sky and my boy

The sky is the palest sort of blue this morning.  It’s the kind that I imagine fades seamlessly into the heavens.  I wonder at its infinite vastness and think of how it would be to fly away.  I’m sure the Wright brothers spent a lot of time looking into the blueness above.

Today I just want to be out under that great blue air.  One of the things that made me fall in love with this town was the sky.  I really hadn’t spent much time in a place that didn’t have overcast for about 75% of the time.  Coastal living is fine in the summer but the fall, spring and winter can get pretty dreary.  When we moved from the coast I left everything  behind.  I had a two-year old boy and my belongings.  My husband dropped me off and unloaded the U-haul then left for 2 weeks.  I had a phone but no washer, dryer or  hot water.  I had no friends or acquaintances. I had no money.  I had no car.

I remember riding my bike to the grocery store with my baby in the buggy- praying that I didn’t lose any food on my way up the hill.  I remember swinging with my baby in a deserted playground, nobody was out in the August heat.  I remember washing my comforter in the bath tub and hanging it outside on a rope in the car port.

It was a lonely time but I also remember calling my mom.  She was worried as any mother would be.  I told her “It’s ok mom, the sky is blue here.”  I love this sky.  It can be the hottest day of summer or the coldest day of winter and that sky gets me every time.  It’s beautiful!

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The Mama Tribe

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Me and the crazies

One of the writing prompts was ‘parenting’.  Loaded topic if you ask me. No expert advice here but all my kids can cook and they have all appendages still attached.  I think that deserves a little bonus point right there.

If there is one thing I have learned it is that no kid is exactly like another.  Parenting needs to reflect that.  Of course standard safety rules apply.  Don’t run with knives, don’t talk to strangers, etc.  All safety aside, what I do with my kids may be polar opposite to your parenting style and vice versa.  You have to figure that parenting is much like a toddler’s appetite.  As long as you get the 5 major food groups into that kid over the course of a week it is not so imperative that they ingest them all in one meal. Same thing with parenting. When you are doing your best to raise a happy, healthy functioning adult that contributes to society you will have days when you do all the good things. You will have days when you mess up royally.  Over the course of a week’s time if  you get more good than not- you’re probably going in the right direction.

My kids do chores.  I love chores.  I really do.  I love working together and getting stuff done! My kids, not so much.  They will thank me later.  If you don’t have chores at your house you might have a cleaner house than mine because you have someone who is more detail oriented doing the cleaning.  My house is cleaned by kids.  You are welcome to visit anytime but please keep that thought in mind if you do.

We have animals and the kids feed them.  I feed the kids.  That’s the current system.  Once in a while they feed me.  It’s a pretty sweet deal. See, if you teach them to cook your house may be a disaster but they will want to practice and then you get a meal and they get life skills.  Then they can clean up during chore time.  It’s great. We are all winners!

Anyway, each to his own on this parenting gig.  I have seen kids who stay up with mom and dad until 12 every night.  They stagger into school and try to stay awake. I think “What is wrong with these parents!”… BUT, the kid is fed, well dressed and most importantly, LOVED.  I don’t dictate their bedtime. (although I wish I could on test day)

One of the things that kind of hurts my hear is to see kids that miss their parents.  Not because they are away but because they never see them.  When both mom and dad are working it’s tough to squeeze in time for those kids.  If I could I would change that too.

I am not perfect and neither are you.  Let’s just move forward from there. What works for one will not work for all so let’s  accept our differences. Being a mom is tough work.  It’s messy and thankless.  It has no glory or trophy.  Why do we have to make it harder on one another?  I vow to help a mom in need and to love my fellow mama.  We cannot walk in one another’s shoes but we can be more understanding.

Keep up the good work!

 

Life

My Beautiful America

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We have witnessed the beauty of Mt. Rushmore at dusk.  We have toured Yellowstone in the heat of the summer.  We have skied in the Tetons in the chill winter. As we traveled and took in the sights of this lovely land we drew closer to our country somehow.

I will remain proud of this country.  Many of those near and dear to me have served to keep us safe and free.  I will hold my head high for them and honor those that have fought battles that I never could.

Wikipedia had this to say when I looked up the word nation:

Ernest Renan‘s What is a Nation? (1882) declares that “race is confused with nation and a sovereignty analogous to that of really existing peoples is attributed to ethnographic or, rather linguistic groups”, and “The truth is that there is no pure race and that to make politics depend upon ethnographic analysis is to surrender it to a chimera”, echoing a sentiment of civic nationalism. He also claims that a nation is not formed on the basis of dynasty, language, religion, geography, or shared interests. Rather, “A nation is a soul, a spiritual principle. Two things, which in truth are but one, constitute this soul or spiritual principle. One lies in the past, one in the present. One is the possession in common of a rich legacy of memories; the other is present-day consent, the desire to live together, the will to perpetuate the value of the heritage that one has received in an undivided form”, emphasizing the democratic and historical aspects of what constitutes a nation, although, “Forgetting, I would even go so far as to say historical error, is a crucial factor in the creation of a nation”. “A nation is therefore a large-scale solidarity”, which he said is reaffirmed in a “daily plebiscite“.[4]

In these times may we still posess the desire to live together and remain united.

God Bless America

Farm, Kids, Life

What I learned from keeping critters

I write a lot about animals but the truth is there is a lot to be said.  I like most critters that are feathered or furred.  I’ll admit it can be stinky business at times.  It just kinda happens so you have to expect it. Animals are messy. Also expect the unexpected.  They will do the craziest things and get into the strangest predicaments.

I love keeping animals.  There are some obvious bonuses to the business.  Our sweet bunnies are cute, furry, cuddly, etc.  Our chickens give us eggs and have interesting personalities. Beyond that they are calming.  They are dependent on you and that is both humbling and encouraging all at once. They don’t talk back so you can say whatever is on your mind and they just go about their day.  They are always happy to see you- because you feed them.  Aside from providing our daily meat (or at least a portion of our meat) our animals teach us so much more.

Responsibility.  It’s a good word.  It gets you up in the morning and gives you a daily opportunity to look past your own needs.

Work. Positively occupying our bodies is a must.  What would we do otherwise? Answer: probably squander time on things that we shouldn’t.

Nurturing.  It’s pretty amazing to see my drama queen daughter dutifully care for her bunnies as tenderly as a loving mother.

Science and Health.  I love watching my teen son learn how to nurse a sick goat back to health and try to figure out how we should alter its diet for optimal growth.  They just don’t teach this stuff in school.

I really can’t say enough good things about farm life.  Have I convinced you yet?henneke farm SUNSETPhoto credits on this pic go to my friend Carolyn.  She captured the farm at sunset one evening when it was looking its rosy best.  Love!

 

 

Farm, Life

Gardening

I love my garden.  It is quite taken over by thistles at the edges and if you aren’t careful they might even goose you as you harvest those down low squash.  I love the magnitude of it. It is far larger than any I have ever grown before.  The size is roughly 1/4 of an acre.  I was wanting double that but simply ran out of gas in my tank when planting time rolled around.  I am thankful I did!  It was a lot of work to manage what I did plant.

Previous gardens I had needed heavy amending to the soil and I was strapped for time this year.  I had my son plow it up and furrow some rows and I planted my little heart out.  There were no soil tests and no guarantees.  It was hit or miss.  That is what I love about gardening.  There is a certain element of chance.  You can til, plant, water and weed but ultimately the Creator wakes that seed up and sends notice that it is time to grow.

Everyone around me had gardens putting out produce before I did and I wondered if my reckless gardening style had bitten me in the backside again.  And then…something wonderful happened.  The plants decided they were simply late bloomers and started to produce at their leisure.  I harvest about every third day and get new surprises every time.  The marigolds have got to be a giant breed.  They are taller than my first grade class!  No kidding guys, they are amazing.

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I have yet to get the whole canning/preserving thing down.  (SO.MUCH.WORK.) I would have to put everything on hold for a month just to get it all done.  Since this is my first year I’m gonna give myself some leeway.  Next year, I’ll get to canning like nobody’s business!

As I get ready to put the garden to bed I can’t help but tie it into my life. (what can I say, I find double meanings in everything)

Hard work. Check.

Late bloomer. Check.

A little uncertain. Check.

In the hands of the Creator. Check.

Ok God, You made the garden bloom- what can You do with me?