This is the struggle: to live truer to myself. I know there a lot of cliches out there. I am not out on a soul search to find myself. I simply want to stop worrying about how I will be viewed and make the choices/say the things/do the stuff that I would do if I wasn’t constantly putting the “should dos” of life in forefront.
I am getting older. I am NOT OLD! But I am not going to gain any extra days or years in this lifetime. I want them to count. I want to matter. I want people to miss me when I’m gone. Most importantly- I want to live so that I leave part of me behind.
I am at this very moment. being a wife, mom, teacher, Sunday school bus worker and a farmer. Each of these roles requires a lot of work and attention. I cannot do them all well all the time. I have learned some by heart and so the routine often gets me through. Do I love these jobs? YES! Do I want to keep doing them? YES! But what do you do when you find yourself being swirled in circles by the carousel of life? Life on repeat- around, and around again.
I am in the midst of one of those times. Dear reader, I need to break free. This life is a one time shot. Do or die, baby! Actually, it’s do and die – we all face that day when our time is up.
I have challenged myself to be the me-est me I can be. Say all the stuff! Do all the things! Make choices and if they don’t work make more!
Well, I am feeling better already
Let’s go carpe that diem!